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[23 Sep 2006|02:07pm] |
Its been an incredible week but I won't write about it. There is now only 1 person on my friends list that actually reads my posts (how utterly deperessing) so I'm gonna move on from LJ... just keep the account for checking up on people :)
Just before I part one quick comment.
Over the past few years I've met some great people and had some great times. Kinda bemused as to what is happening with my life though as everyone is moving away or not interested in speaking to me any more. Alas the people who I got on well with on my course all live away and most the folk in the staff room are at LEAST twice my age :-/
Still have 2 cracking neighbours in Scott & Lyndsey, Jamie is back, see Jeff on occassions and see Dave Gillian & Ashley on the odd Felt I make so dont get me wrong, I'm not feeling *all alone*.
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[13 Sep 2006|08:34pm] |
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I miss my bike. I really miss the freedom, thrills and so forth. Been about 20 months now and it I lust so much to just take her down, feel the curves and thrash her hard... but she's gone :(
I want a replacement but no money, nor anywhere to keep her safe. I guess its something I can dream for eh?
Well I was looking forward to watching Man UTD Vs Celtic but as its Sky Sports I cannae. Bugger! Sham 69, bass and stella will have to substitute.
Hmm is it normal to refer to a machine as her?
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[08 Sep 2006|11:28am] |
Big grins. very big grins! Some of the biggest companies / organisations in the UK Media industry love my work.
Nice to be appreciated and likes.
I'm in a near bliss situation the way the last year has been developing. This time last year i was thankful I made it into a fourth year of uni stuck doing wretched things. Now I have a better career in progress, potential of big money from my web design hobby and my hosting has finally got going! Social life is looking promising as well. I'm a happy little bunny.
Had some finance worries though. My loan came in the wrong account and the same day those penny pinchers at the DCC took £120 or so that didnt belong to them. I've emailed, wrote and phoned to tell them. Monday I got a form for "reasssessment" so i filled it in, attached a post it note explaining I WANT MY MONEY BACK and some documentation proving my financial status. They returned the documentation to me today with STILL no ruddy reply. Feck sake :P
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[04 Sep 2006|11:34pm] |
I really... really... hate phones. Someone sent me a text saying please call me ASAP and I naturually thought "I best do so, they may be in a pickle" only to get "Hi, what you upto?" ... -_-
If I didnt get called by ma boss via both phones at least one would be turned off and buried by now!
Edit: haha brilliant. Just as I posted this my phone went!
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| School |
[01 Sep 2006|02:13pm] |
Apologises for double posting but:
In about 18-20 days I'll be actually teaching at Menzieshill High School. Yikes :)
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| Going out for drinks |
[01 Sep 2006|01:20pm] |
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Anyone fancy a few drinks out? I really need to celebrate.
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[29 Aug 2006|07:09pm] |
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I just can't wait to get into a classroom. I'm absolutely terrified of stepping up there with all those eyes watching me but the prospect of being a teacher... there's nothing more I want in my life. Despite the amount of TEDIUOUS yet challenging lectures & workshops on my course its making me really lust to teach.
I *know* I've made the right move in becoming a teacher. Being a teacher isnt ANYTHING like I thought it would be. Hard to explain, so I shan't as i doubt any cares. Just everything I've experienced so far makes me really want to give my life to the profession.
The best thing, I'm gonna be *something*, someone.
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Quick note,
To all those looking at new starts and changes in their lives, good luck! Being lost in the woods is wretched, I know, and the path out just feels great eh? All the best.
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| Fat Angry German Kid |
[27 Aug 2006|05:26pm] |
I'm assuming you all know the kid i mean. Well last night me and jeff were watching vids of the kid and one was the angry kid playing Football Manager and we realised... we are both like that ourselves.
Avoid FM if you have heart risk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKvztQBlraQ
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| Hello all |
[20 Aug 2006|05:00pm] |
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Been some time since I last posted on here and they've been very brief.
First off congrats to Scott! Kudos
So then, my life:
Money is worryingly low. Considerably worse than previously but surely it can't be too long till my loan comes in though. Lets just hope i can afford the essentials until then!
My work is looking very promising. Its not gonna be a £/hour job but more profit sharing, and the guy in charge of stuff is going to London soon to meet some folk over funding :) The project is coming along very well, rather impressed with it, and really is something special. With some quality promotion and an experienced coder tidying up my security flaws and adding swish stuff I reckon it has incredible potential. Nervous about its initial beta testing with 100 active users... will it cope?
Teaching starts tomorrow, exciting stuff! I'm terrified I've not got something sorted, or get lost / turn up late but aside from my paranoia and fear of screwing up I'm also looking forward to it. Gonna be INTENSE tomorrow... 8:30 arrival with all the registration etc then loads of intro stuff including the course IT and our new laptops (my jaw dropped when i saw that on schedule!) followed by lunch, more intro stuff followed by a class that seems more "learning" from 4:30pm finishing at 7pm. A fun packed day spending a massive 10 1/2 hours at Uni!!! Thats more than I did in a week on my old course.
My hosting project isnt going so well... I keep giving everyone free accounts instead of charging... D'oh!
My "dVn Gaming" site could well be very successful. After making a wee section the other day I mentioned it to someone and next thing its a sticky on official DF: Black Hawk Down forums :) Fair bit of the site isnt running yet, prob wont be till October or so.
So what about socially? Well its been pretty poor to be honest. Since my outing with Jamie over 2 weeks back I've not been out although I did have a short trip out with my folks. Went to Carnoustie for an overnight break which was really nice just to be somewhere else and in company. Good food too! Next day we went to Dewers World of Whisky at Aberfeldy where to our surprise there was an event on. We tasted some whisky (mmmmm), watched some duck herding, learnt about whisky and watched some various country dances. I believe it was an African country (forget which), South Africans, folk from Chile, Swiss and naturually Scots. Folks even bought me a bottle of nice whisky ^___^
Well if you've read this far I must say... I'm impressed!
I may provide an update tomorrow but I've got work when i get home (whoopdeedoo!), a meal to make (very nice looking one!) and probably phone my folks so i may be too tired to bother :D
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[07 Aug 2006|04:56pm] |
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My backing off drinking aint working out. Was out a few times last week and Jamie is about so no doubt be out again. D'oh!
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[04 Aug 2006|06:12pm] |
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I wish i could tell you about my meeting but I can't ( so here's a quiz )
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[02 Aug 2006|01:22pm] |
I'm not dead, at least I dont think so, just been busy with my web stuff. I'm going on a business meeting this week so I wont be able to make Felt, which is a shame, but might even get my first large payment for web work. Had about a tenner here and there but thats all.
I really need to improve my web hosting site once I get a free day, www.hosting.efu-squad.com... and change the url. I could have hosting.dvn-gaming.com for free which isnt *too* bad.
Laters
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[28 Jul 2006|12:15pm] |
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Was all in my head,,, I'm still a cynical p.o.s.,,, just one obviously that sees things.
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[27 Jul 2006|09:39pm] |
Last night I was having this weird dream, strange voices and seeing things like dead bodies. Was pretty screwed up! Then the weirdest part was realising I was infact still awake.
Have to admit I'm bit disturbed. I was awake and hearing / seeing some disturbing things. Few times today some screwed up images have just appeared in my head too :s
I haven't drank for a fair few days and I dunnae take drugs, especially not when I'm just sat working in the flat.
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[23 Jul 2006|10:32am] |
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Well as usual my sleeping habits are as erratic as hell but for once I need to get them fixed and steady. This week I've been up at 7am, then 4pm the next day. I've been up since about 3 yesterday, but I was up at 7 yesterday and had a wee lunchtime/afternoon nap.
Anyway,,, So cosy in my flat just lounging with PCs, music, tv and dvd all in ma boxers ^__^. Sure the place is messy and can feel lonely but meh I'm sure when I'm active again. Oh food is good in my flat and hopefully soon I'll start eating like a "normal" person... even throwing all my crisps out to be sure.
Behind on work. I somehow got it in my mind I'm unemployed but I'm not... I'm a web designer for £££. Oh aye on web design, I'm also working on a new wee project that may be pretty tasty when finished. Gonna be a BIG project!
You know, Mike Mosely was pretty cool in Faith No More. Okay so he doesnt have the same "genius" nor vocal quality as Mike Patton but its bizarre wee tunes that can be very catchy.
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[21 Jul 2006|09:17pm] |
happy richard, yeah
i have a weird feeling in me, i hope its not what i think
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| Usual shite |
[21 Jul 2006|01:29pm] |
Old boy is such an incredible film! Got it the other day and fk me it was good.
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[15 Jul 2006|12:36am] |
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Well its been a while since I made an entry, well one that has any sort of point. My life seems to have undergone a very significant change in the past few weeks and I'm finally getting a grasp of it. Have to admit I'm very disappointed with how things seem but I'm sure once i can get over the present disappointment and "lows" things might work out with a happy ending one day. Just gonna be very hard mentally to keep with it. Have to admit if it wasnt for the thought of hurting my folks feelings I'd have done some real stupid things by now.
I've lost all my self confidence and starting to very much doubt myself both academically and as a person. I know its a bad thing to do but I keep getting rejected, coming second or just not achieving what I want. All confindence has done is make me get knocked back further. When you think you are a good person yet constantly "on the sidelines" its hard. Very hard. I've also realised I really am poor at programming, good job i gave up on that, but I'm also gonna be a shite teacher. Maybe the course will fix me up tho.
Anyway I presume none of you care for the details but I'm still here. I apologise as I am gonna be very weird over next while because I reckon i need to sort my fucking life out in order to get on the next road. I'm gonna miss a lot of the past few years.
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